another day in paradise...

Ning Ning baby sitter is sick. So i have to take leave today and take care of this little rascal. She has grown to be a strong little baby. For a small frame of only 6kg, Ning Ning has proven to have the lung of a soprano and loves to kick and push around. We observed that she is beginning to develop her personality and it is a joy to see her grow. Any parent who miss this stage of their baby is poorer for it. For me....its another day in paradise, to spend time with her....although it leave me with no energy at the end of the day.

End of a road...

Feb28 2009:- QBMall reported closure of a FnB shop at LG. It so happened that i owned a shop there as well. And i closed down my business on the same day. I sold hotdog. Not for a living, but for extra income. However, I learned a hard truth of live. Not all businesses are profitable, and those that are not profitable will suffer tremendous lost. Well, while i don't feel pain, I do feel a tinge of sadness at the very end. I expect to close shop for a while now, since business has been slow and I am ready for it. However, i am sorry for my worker who has to look for a new job in this uncertain environment. Compensated that guy two months salary. Hope he will be able to pay for his car.

Brought Ning Ning to the shop before we closed down. Took a few pictures for memories. She is too small to know yet. But i think it will be nice to show her one day that her old man did some small business before.

Weekend .... hurray!!!

Its Friday man! Weekend is coming! I look forward to some relaxation after a week of hustle and bustle. At the moment, things has quiet down a bit. Ning Ning, my little 4 months old daughter is finally asleep. Its been a battle recently to get her to sleep. She is on automatic mode to cry for about half an hour loudly and most pityfully. Then she will slow down and go to bed. Today, a little bit of milk finally enticed her to her doldrum. However, the usual routine of craddling and whispering to her milky smelling little crown was needed to quiet down her thunder humbling cries. I am beginning to feel the weekend mood. Tomorrow, a bit of newspaper reading in the quiet of the morning is called for.
How was the week? Well, i would say it was pretty productive. I have managed to sort out a few things in the work place. One or two presentation did not go down well with management. But overall, i think the technical understanding was in placed, although some fellows failed to understand the message. Well, i will need to recalibrate my presentation a bit.
I think most of the problem lies in the lack of managers understanding of the analysis. This needs to be bridge with advanced calibration. Well, better send them the analysis. Enough about work.
Another proud moment this week is Ning Ning is getting very active. Her turn and twist is getting more energetic this week. Which makes us worry about her safety. so we no longer let her out of our eyes, especially when she is lying on a table or bed. i also find her eager to test out the usage of her legs. Well, she can hardly turn her body to stomach down position, but this little spirit would like to use her leg to walk, with a little bit of anti-gravity help from the father. Well, i hope she will start to eat more than her usual 110ml of milk from now onwards. Her milk is filling up the freezer too fast too furious.

Invisible barrier .... why we should just dream that out of our mind

It was valentine day. My wife complained to me she can't go anywhere since having our little girl. I got to pity her. She really did not go anywhere of note for the past four months. For her, it is too much hassle to take all the necessary equipments for any trip longer than 2 hours from the house. For those of you who have no kids, just imagine breast pump, ice box, need to look for mother friendly location etc. So my poor wife end up in the house most of the weekends. She was truely buely bored. For me, it is not necessary. In live, this are the kind of invisible barrier that we built around ourselve limiting what we can do for our happiness. They are more about mental state than any true constraint. I hope she will start to go out again and enjoy live and also look not at our new born baby as a barrier. May the dream fairy brings wonderful thoughts to her mind tonite and fill her with inspiration to search for fun.

Innocence.... the beauty we miss as adult

Today my little girl is 4 months old. She is my pet. So innocent. Speak her mind freely and clearly with her smiles and cries. There are no petense of joy or sadness. Only honesty of friendship and desire. The world of adulhood sadly miss this element of openess, shrouded by our constraint of perceive decency. If only we learn from babies, that innocence and pure honesty breed joy. Lets be a baby again....

Missing the depression

This is a time of great turmoil. Every day a new story of somebody lost his or her job, or a factory running at 10% or one version or another of doomsday scenario is the order of the day. Personally, i am loosing my own business as well. By some dumb luck, my partners talked me into stupid hot dog business. We no longer call it business, but charitable feeding of Penang folks. With this depression on going at full gale now, my client abandoned me by drove. So i decided to shut down the store. It doesn't cause me depression, but rather give me a sense of relief. Luckily, my day job look safe at the moment. I do not know if i will be able to find something if i loose my job now.

I missed the 1997-1998 depression because of my age. I was a student in UK. However, it hits Malaysia much more badly then than now. I can only hope this round, the great feeling of hopelessness for people who are badly hit by economy downturn will miss me again.

For you folks out there, good luck.